Ahh…summer. The beach, relaxation, sleeping in.
I’m a mom!
So let’s trade the beach for a blow up pool in the backyard, relaxation for, um, non-relaxation, and sleeping in for waking up at 7:00 AM regardless of what day it is.
I’ve heard that summer can be awesome when you’re a mom. And I do have to admit it’s nice not having to get up and pack lunches and rush out the door everyday. But some days I miss that! On the days where it’s not even 9:00 AM and Evan has already been in time-out 3 times, and Porter is having a meltdown because I won’t let him climb on top of the table (#worstmomever).
It’s hard. It’s exhausting. Some days it’s completely emotionally draining. I don’t know if it is just this time of the year, or just this time in life…being a stay at home mom to a 3.5 year old and a 16 month old. I’m amazed at these two little people’s ability to zap all of my energy so quickly. But, let’s be honest…I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I love it. Some moments I hate it, yeah, but when I stop and look at the big picture, I am truly thankful. These boys of mine are perfection. I love getting to be a part of the giggles, the new discoveries, the new skills, the snuggles. Sure, I could do without the meltdowns and the screaming fits (anyone want to volunteer for that part?!). But if missing those means I had to miss all the good stuff, then I will take it all. Because it is SO good.
This week as I have been struggling with feeling drained and defeated, I am choosing to remember Who lives in me and is at work in me. I cannot “lose my patience” because the definition of patience lives inside of me. So I have to choose to REMEMBER my patience. Because it’s there, every bit I will ever need of it. And as I walk through these hard days I can rest in the truth that I am loved deeply by my Savior, and because of that I can deeply love my children and those around me.