Boy mom.

A label I proudly wear. Which is something I never would have imagined. I grew up with a sister, took dance classes, loved makeup and dress up and Barbies. I had no real knowledge of little boys or what that entailed.

Needless to say I have learned quickly.

Before Jonathan and I decided to have kids I knew I only wanted two. I come from a family of two, so it just made sense to me. Two parents, two hands, two kids. No brainer. Jonathan was leaning towards three since he comes from a family of three siblings! I guess you want what you’re used to.

I was not shocked when we sat in the ultrasound room when I was pregnant the first time and the tech told us that our little baby was a boy. I would have been shocked if she had said otherwise. Call it mother’s intuition.

Evan James was born in December of 2011, and it was the most amazing moment of our lives.

Fast forward a couple of sleepless months and some years later and we decide it’s time for baby number two. At that point we were both agreed that two would be plenty (especially when Evan’s tantrum throwing phase kicked in about 2 weeks into my pregnancy…joy!). Why would we want to put ourselves through that over and over and over? That would be insanity! Twice is more than enough.

So I went into my second pregnancy knowing it would be my last.

And knowing surely this would be a baby girl. I’ve always pictured a baby girl. Dance recitals, mother daughter bonding, weekends away together when she grows up, planning her wedding, etc. etc. You mamas of girls know what I’m talking about I imagine!

We planned out the gender reveal party and invited all of our friends and family over. We excitedly left our ultrasound appointment with the sealed envelope in hand. I passed it over to the worker at the balloon counter at the party store, just knowing I’d be back to pick up the box of pink balloons in a few hours.

Fast forward to us opening that box in front of all of our people. Before the box was opened, I saw the balloons float up to the top.

Blue.

What?

I was shocked. Legitimately. And I was in front of a group of people and on video. So my look of shock had to quickly be replaced with the look of excitement. In the above picture I was looking and talking to Evan because I could not process what was happening.

Let me try to process the feelings I had out loud here…

I was not disappointed to be having another boy. I was disappointed that I wouldn’t be having a little girl. Does that make sense?

I felt this huge weight crashing down on me.

That I wasn’t cut out to be a mom of boys.

That I would be a lame, boring, no-fun mom.

That Jonathan and the boys would only want to do stuff that I didn’t want to do and I would be left by myself all the time (seriously…before we knew baby 2 was a boy Jonathan very jokingly said something along these lines when we were in Academy and I started crying…thanks, hormones).

Y’all, how crazy is that?? And how untrue.

It took me about a week or two, but I slowly started to realize all of the feelings I was having were straight up LIES.

“The enemy seeks to kill, steal, and destroy.”

This was so apparent now. Instead of relishing in the joy of the fact that we were adding another precious boy to our family, I was plagued by the feeling that I wouldn’t be enough.

And that’s just simply not true. God knows what He’s doing. He gave me my children on purpose. He chose me to be their mother. The mother of boys. Clearly He thinks I’m cut out for it. And if God thinks that, then I think I’ll be okay.

I cannot imagine my life without either of these precious boys of mine.

So let me back track to the part where we also just KNEW this pregnancy would be my last. After Porter was born I gave away all my maternity clothes. As he outgrew his newborn and baby things, I passed them on to other new mamas. Before we moved into our new house last year, we had a garage sale. I sold the infant car seat. I sold the bouncer and the swing, the diaper bag, the bottles. Everything. With zero remorse (right now I imagine there are a few moms nodding their heads along with me).

Then Porter turned two. And Jonathan brought up that maybe he would want another one. And I was like, “Hell no.”

But then my wheels started spinning, and I started thinking about it, and I was so mad at myself every time I felt myself considering having another baby. Like every time I’d see a billboard with a baby on it, or a commercial, or visit a new mama in the hospital. I said I was done, ok God??

So I finally told Jonathan I was thinking about it, and he was like “Nah.” The feelings he had about another one had apparently passed. Great…

So that’s where we have been the past year. Back and forth about whether we should or shouldn’t, but never on the same page at the same time.

Things are honestly starting to get simpler in our home now that the boys are getting a little older. We are out of the baby phase for the most part with a 2.5 year old and a 4.5 year old (the 1/2 is very important apparently…just ask Evan). They can go play by themselves in their rooms or in the backyard without me hovering. They can get themselves in and out of car seats. Evan can get himself dressed (amazing, life changing). They can get their own drinks from the fridge and snacks from the pantry. There aren’t set in stone eating and sleeping schedules. We can go with the flow a little more. Why would we want to mess that up?

But then I picture 10, 15, 20 years down the road, and I want there to be more people around my table. Two kids just seems like so few. I guess I can blame it on the show “Parenthood” and all of their family dinners. I love the idea of my children being adults and still wanting to come to dinner at my house. Anyone else with me on that??

But another baby? I just don’t know.

Do I want to gain 40 (plus) pounds again? Do I want to give birth again? (seriously I can feel all my lady parts clench up at the thought.) Do I want to give up months of sleepless nights again? Be tied down to a schedule, to bottles, to leaky boobs, to baby proofing….the list of cons is long and real.

But a baby…that’s one big “pro” that pretty much trumps any “con”.

So we waited. And we prayed that the answer would be clear to BOTH of us at the SAME time (that would be really helpful, ok God?!).

And finally, it was. Literally one day we just both looked at each other, and Jonathan said “should we do this?” And I said, “yes.”

The fifth member of our little tribe will be here sometime around the end of January, and we couldn’t be more excited. Sometimes terrified, but mostly excited.

I will continue to fight off the lies of not being “mom enough” for more than two kids. That I won’t be able to handle another little boy. Or that because I’m now a “boy mom” I won’t know what to do with a baby girl. I won’t let lies make my decisions for me or steal my joy. I will rest firmly in the truth that God knows what He’s doing and that His timing is good.

And that I am enough.

 

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  • Danielle - This resonates so much with me but for different reasons! I am currently pregnant with my third and I am convinced that THIS will be my last pregnancy.

    But I also always envisioned four kids. And I also want the Parenthood-style family dinners!

    I definitely struggle with questioning whether I will be able to devote enough time and love and attention to all three of our kids. We want to expand our family down the road but through adoption. But I’m also afraid of whether we could handle that whole process. There are so many lies and so much pressure. Thank you for the reminder that I am enough :)ReplyCancel

    • Hannah // Lugimom - Glad you were able to relate and hopefully feel encouraged! God has already equipped us for what He will call us to! He’s got this ❤️😊ReplyCancel

Happy Friday my friends! I’m back for the second time this week (woo!) with a new round of Friday Favorites! It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these, and I’m hoping it will help me get back in the swing of writing. I miss it and I miss connecting with y’all! For this post I’m linking up with NarciErika, and Andrea for a weekly link up of all of the best things we are loving!

ONE

The newest workout program from Beachbody is out! It’s called Country Heat, and so far I am loving it! Cardio is not my favorite thing to do generally…the thought of running or doing burpees make me cringe (anyone else?). So when I saw the previews for this new program, I was very interested! It’s great country music and easy to follow dance moves. You can make them as low or high intensity as you’d like, which makes me think it will be a great workout to do throughout the rest of my pregnancy (yep…I’m pregnant in case you missed that announcement). I’ve done two of the workouts so far, and both were a lot of fun a gave me a good calorie burn.

It’s also showing awesome results from the test groups…some even better than the results from 21 Day Fix! Let me know if you’re interested in knowing more about it!

On a fitness note, I’m planning on running a 3 week challenge group on August 15 if anyone would be interested in that as well…working out, eating clean, losing weight! Win win win. Shoot me an email for more info!

TWO

If you’ve been following me for any amount of time, or we are friends in real life, you know my love for Beauty Counter runs deep! So when they released their mascara a couple of months ago I had to get my hands on it. I’m kind of picky about mascara…there are so many out there that leave residue under my eyes or on my brow bone, and I am not a fan of that! And then there are those that make my eyes feel irritated. Not a fan of that either. I am happy to report that this mascara does none of those things. It’s easy to apply and doesn’t need to multiple coats….unless you just like a lot of mascara, in which case it’s pretty build-able. It does take more than water to take off at the end of the day, but I consider that a plus because that means it’s not coming off when I get sweaty. I just use coconut oil or my Beauty Counter cleansing balm and it comes off immediately. Last but certainly not least, this mascara is made with SAFE ingredients! I love that anything I get from Beauty Counter won’t harm my skin or body. Follow this link to visit my friend Kandice’s page. She is so passionate about educating people about better quality and safe products, and I’m glad to know her! Not just because she keeps me up to date with all things skin care and make up:)

THREE

There’s no place like Stars Hollow. I am re-watching Gilmore Girls…for the third time. I watched it when it aired however long ago, I binged it when they added it to Netflix a couple of years ago, and I’m now re-bingeing (that’s totally a word). I just finished The Good Wife a month or so ago, and I needed a new show. In light of how heavy life and events have been lately, I just wanted something light-hearted and feel-good. Gilmore Girls is the definition of those things. If you’re one of those people who have never watched this show, stop reading right now and watch episode 1. And in case you’ve been living under a rock, there are new episodes coming out in November on Netflix. Hopefully I won’t be the only person watching all 6 hours of it in one day.

 FOUR

Maternity pants! Can I get an “AMEN” from any of you pregnant or formerly pregnant ladies!? There isn’t much better than stretchy pants that you can wear out in public. I like to call them secret sweatpants. And since they come up to your boobs, you don’t have to worry about showing any crack when you bend over. Just another perk you may not have thought of. Being pregnant for the third time means my pants quit buttoning approximately 5 minutes after I saw the plus sign. I had zero about of sadness when it was time to bust out the elastic waist band. I can’t wait til the weather gets cool enough for leggings. Maternity leggings are a gift from the Lord and I plan to wear them everyday until this baby is born (and for many months after, because there is no “bouncing back” happening that quickly over here folks).

Well, this list is short, but I feel like the quality is good 😉 Consider this a comeback after a summer hiatus. I am planning to share some posts soon about how we decided about baby #3 and about some parenting struggles. I’m also hoping to share another list of “thank you notes”, as well as some craft tutorials. So stay tuned!

Make sure you use the links at the top to see what other bloggers are loving this week, and feel free to go link up or share your favorites in the comments! See y’all next week:)

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  • Caitlin - I had so much trouble finding maternity leggings that held in my legs and butt this pregnancy… so I wore high rise Lululemon workout pants until they cut off my air supply haha. Then I had some pants from Old Navy that I wore under my belly. =0)ReplyCancel

    • Hannah // Lugimom - I’ve never tried the lululemon ones! I have multiple pairs of old navy ones because they are one of the few places with long inseams!! I’m 5’11 so I don’t need high water pants to go along with my big belly hahaReplyCancel

Happy Tuesday my friends! It’s August already. How did that happen?? Since it’s the first Tuesday of the month,  it’s time for the Ready, Set, Craft Challenge! I’m linking up with KellyEmilyAmber, and Kerry today to share a post with a project where we all use the same material. This month’s material is…

family pictures!

How fun is that? This is something EVERYONE has and if you’re like me, you struggle with knowing what to do with them. I was wracking my brain trying to come up with a craft idea for my photos. Honestly I tend to just pick a few favorites for our gallery wall and small frames around the house, and update them throughout the year. Pretty boring, sorry!

Instead of sharing a typical craft with you, I decided to share how I “craft” our family photo book at the end of the year. I’m sure you’ve seen the gorgeous family year books floating around Pinterest. Last year I finally bit the bullet and made one!

For the past few years all of our family photos have just been sitting in folders on my computer, lost in random file names. So I will break down how I have started organizing my photos on the computer which makes the photo book making process a lot easier.

I have a “pictures” folder on my desktop with a “2016” folder in it (2015 is still there because I use photos from then on the blog or to print occasionally. The previous years are on my 2 external hard drives.) Then I have a folder for each month.

Each month has folders in it for major activities, and then I upload each month’s cell phone pictures into a folder as well.

Having the photos all separated by month makes it really easy to stay organized for an album.

In theory I could work on the album itself each month…but let’s be honest about the likelihood of that happening. I am hoping to get some work done on it once the boys are back in school next month so I’m not glued to the computer for hours at the end of the year! And I’ll be a tad bit busy in January since that’s when Baby #3 is due to arrive!

So back to the album…there are a few different programs you can use to make it depending on your preferences. The top choices I know of are My Publisher, Blurb, iBooks, Shutterfly, and Artifact Uprising. This past year I went with Blurb, simply because I liked their layout options and price point. They also offered a PDF of my book for a small extra cost. If you’re ok with waiting a while to print there are usually some great discounts or coupons you can get (My Publisher currently has a free photo book offer for new customers, and 75% off for friends and family).

Designing your book can be as simple or complex as you want it. Many of the different services offer pre-designed layouts, where you could just upload all of your photos and it designs the whole thing for you. If you want more control you can create custom layouts. You can even design your pages in photoshop and import them into your book. I went between pre-made layouts and ones I custom designed.

You can add as much or as little text as you want. My plan for this year was to make the album as the year progressed so I could give more detailed thoughts and captions, but that didn’t happen…because life…small children…tired. You get the idea 😉 But I would totally recommend making it as you go, maybe even working on it once a quarter while your brain is fresh!

I spent right around $100 for my 20×20 book and the PDF. It’s a really nice quality hard back book. You could do it cheaper if you went smaller, did it paper back, or waited for a great discount.

I hope this post helps some of you who, like me, are challenged when it comes to what to do with the massive amounts of photos we take of our kids and families. I love having them all consolidated for the year in one book. The boys both like sitting and looking through it, too, and it’s fun to reminisce on how much happens in one year! This is motivating me to get started on 2016’s book!

Be sure to use the links below to check out some other awesome crafts with family photos! They will probably be more traditional crafts than mine, so I’m hoping to find some inspiration there as well.

Next month we will be crafting with…

Any of these type of pre-made paper-mache items. There are so many possibilities! So get to crafting and make sure to share it and link up on the first Tuesday in September! Can’t wait to see what everyone comes up with!


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  • Terri Jones - I need to get with it and be more organized. I take 1000 pictures but never get them printed.. horrible of me, thanks for the inspiration mama!!Love your albumsReplyCancel

Hey ladies! It’s already the first Tuesday of the month again, so it’s time for another Ready, Set, Craft Challenge! I’m linking up with KellyEmilyAmber, and Kerry today to share a post with a craft project where we all use the same material. This month’s material is…

chalkboard paint!

Who doesn’t love a chalkboard?? It’s such a simple way to add some fun to your home. I’ve seen everything from entire walls painted with it, to little bitty drink tags. All of it is is fabulous!

Today I just wanted to share two of my DIY chalkboards I’ve made for our house. All you need to make your own is a can of chalkboard paint (I got mine from Home Depot) and some kind of surface to paint it on! A little goes a long way.

The first chalkboard I made was on an old mirror. It used to attach to a vanity I used as a kid. It was a little too girly to use in either of my boys’ rooms, so I decided to repurpose it.

Word of advice…make sure the paint is completely dry before you paint a second coat, and use a soft brush and a soft hand. The paint will peel off the glass pretty easily.

My second chalkboard is made from an old door! We cut the door in half with the intention of using it as a headboard and footboard, but it wasn’t wide enough. I knew I could use it for something, so I made Jonathan keep it in the garage for months. Then it hit me…chalkboard paint! At this point he was starting to get concerned about coming home to half the house covered in chalkboard paint, but he let me go with it 😉

Jonathan added the 4 hooks on the bottom, and voila! The perfect entry way art.

I like to change out the quote every few weeks. It’s such a simple way to constantly have positive reminders and inspiration on your walls, and you’re not spending a ton of money on new art work!

I am by no means a chalk artist, but there are always great ideas on pinterest. I also have the book “The Complete Book of Chalk Lettering” by Valerie McKeehan, which has step by step instructions and inspiration! I definitely recommend it!

That’s it for this month! Use the link below to add your post to the link-up, and join us next month on the first Tuesday when we share a craft made using family photos!

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Hey friends! Sorry for staying away for so long…again! Life has a funny way of doing that to you. I figured today would be a great day to give an update on life lately! It’s another What’s Up Wednesday post, where on the last Wednesday of the month I link up with The Larson Lingo, Mix & Match Mama (who has a gorgeous new site!), and Sheaffer Told Me To. We are all answering these questions! So let’s jump right in.

What we’re eating this week

We are freezer meal-ing it up right now! My sister and I prepped 20 freezer meals a couple of months ago, and I recently went to a Wildtree freezer meal prep “party”…so this week we are having some of each of those. One freezer meal will generally last us half a week, so I can get away with only “cooking” 2 nights a week…if throwing a bag in the crockpot counts as cooking.

What I’m reminiscing about

Always my littles and how little they used to be…

What I’m loving

For the most part, I’m loving hanging with the boys this summer. They’re a lot of fun. Exhausting, and I love when they go to sleep. But they’re pretty fun to be around!

What we’ve been up to

Not a lot and a lot all at the same time. Does that make sense? There hasn’t been anything big on our calendar, but life always feels busy with small kids. Potty training has been the most time consuming thing lately.

We are on week 2. God bless it. He’s got the #1 part down. #2 seems to be terrifying. Praying that happens soon.

We got some chickens! So that’s been fun. It’s nice having fresh eggs everyday. We got 5 from Jonathan’s parents, and then 15 more baby chicks! So yes…20 chickens. We are chicken people. Bless.

What I’m dreading

More weeks/days of potty training to come. I can only beg someone to poop in the potty so many more times before I pull my hair out…#thistooshallpass #thetimeandthepoop

What I’m working on

Painting and a few photo sessions. You can check out my latest photo sessions here. And here are my most recent painting commissions.

My schedule has opened back up to take on some new commission work, so let me know if you need something for your walls! Here’s my Facebook page where I regularly post updates my work.

What I’m excited about

I’m excited about Jonathan being off of work on Monday! And I’m excited about some other fun life things we have going on. I’ll be sharing more about that soon:)

What I’m watching/reading

Watching? The Bachelorette. Don’t judge me. It’s so addictive. I’ve also been binge-watching The Good Wife. Currently on season 4. I love it! I’m open to any other TV suggestions. I need something to get me through the summer. I’m so looking forward to the new Gilmore Girls this fall. Anyone else??

My reading list is WAY too long. Here’s the stack next to my bed. I need a month off to finish all of these.

I’ve got another stack of novels on the book shelf, a book I’m reading on my kindle app, and a to-read list on my phone that is also way too long. So does anyone have any more book recommendations for me? Ha!

What I’m listening to

Besides my kids whining about all.the.things? Kiddddding. I’m always listening to my favorite podcasts when I have time in the van alone (The Popcast, Happy Hour with Jamie Ivey, and Marriage More).

What I’m wearing

The least amount possible that’s still acceptable in public. Cause it’s HOT. We are at home a lot of days so that means stretchy shorts and tank tops. The glamorous life of a stay at home mom, y’all.

What I’m doing this weekend

Friday night is pedicures and dinner with my sister and mom to celebrate my mom’s birthday. I cannot wait! And Sunday we are hanging with friends and going to a 4th of July parade with the kiddos.

What I’m looking forward to next month

Evan has a little art camp next week so I’m looking forward to that. It will be a short break and time with just Porter. Then we have VBS at the church. Evan gets to participate, and I’m volunteering. It’s always a fun week! I’m also looking forward to summer being one month closer to being over! I’m done with this heat, y’all.

What else is new

evan james lugibihl

dadpauljonathan

mommymomgalugibihlhannah

porterjudelugibihl

Please excuse the above. Evan wanted to practice his typing. Jonathan told him my middle name was “ga” because “Christine” was too long to spell. He seemed ok with it.

That’s about all that’s new with us! I’d love to hear what’s up with you in the comments! Or link up your own post with the hosts in the links at the top! Thanks for reading through this little life update. Hoping to post more regularly again in the weeks to come, so stay tuned!

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  • danielle - I just stumble upon your blog with the What’s Up Wednesday link-up and OMG. I have so much house/chicken envy 😉 I have wanted chickens for years but unfortunately our HOA forbids it. For now I will dream of the day we can move to a sizable piece of land and grow an apple orchard (my husband’s dream) and I can finally have bees and chickens!ReplyCancel

    • Hannah // Lugimom - Thanks so much for checking out my post! I am laughing because my husband has planted every kind of fruit tree imaginable that could possibly grow in our Louisiana climate! Sounds like we are kindred spirits!! We have been talking about having chickens since we were dating 10 years ago. Love that it finally happened! Hope you get yours soon :)ReplyCancel

      • danielle - That is too funny! My husband’s main focus is apple varieties and he just got his first three this year, so we won’t see fruit from them for another 3-5. We also planted raspberry, strawberry, and blueberry bushes which are starting to bear fruit and our kiddos LOVE it. If I can’t have the chickens at the least I will have the garden!ReplyCancel

  • Amanda - Last summer I was potty training – you’re right – this too shall pass! Love your art work! I wish I had that talent. Pedicures and dinner sounds just lovely. Have a fabulous July!ReplyCancel

    • Hannah // Lugimom - Thanks girl!! Constantly reminding myself that my 4 year old can independently use the bathroom, and the 2 year old won’t go to college in diapers haha. We will survive!ReplyCancel